i'm all about keepin' it real. i'm a 31 year old stay at home mom to two precious kiddos and a devoted wife to a hardworking husband. i love the outdoors, country music, the sounds of nature, laughing so hard it makes you cry, and making memories with those that mean the most to you. i hoard fitness magazines and ambitiously try out new workout routines and dvds, because i absolutely love them. i love firepits in the winter at our lease on the river, i love lightning bugs dotting the evenings in the summer, i love a great concert or a loud playlist vibrating the water at the lake or the river... i love living life.
i, like millions of other women out there, have suffered from self-esteem and insecurity issues. not only are we bombarded daily with what society
thinks we should look like, we have our own opinions. and people like to share those opinions. it doesn't matter your weight, somebody is always commenting on how skinny you are or how much weight you should lose. shouldn't it be more about how
healthy you are rather than a magic number on the scale? a clothing size you've predetermined you need to be able to fit into?
starting in about eighth grade, i decided i needed to lose weight. i have never, by anyone's standards, been what can be considered "overweight". but i didn't fit in with the girls, boys didn't seem to be attracted to me, and how i looked was the one thing
in my mind i could control. i'd eat one banana and do a hardcore workout video and then run on the treadmill or go workout in the pool for at least another hour. i think at one point i'm being gracious to say i was taking in 500-900 calories a day.
this trend continued off and on through high school, where i still continued to feel like i didn't fit in, where i never found my place with "the cool kids". {you know the ones.} i finally gained a little footing in my confidence in my senior year after recovering from the devastating experience of not making cheerleader for i think the third time, and realizing that i
had to be ok with me or my senior year was going to be miserable. i danced, i met an incredible guy that allowed me to blossom, and i loved life.
unfortunately, things moved on and i met a guy two days into my college experience that completely wrecked the person i'd become. it was gradual, so i didn't even notice what was happening. bad habits returned full force and i began to restrict calories, work out too hard, and this time, i was armed with the assistance of a little diet pill called ephedra.
i'm not proud of my choices. i'm not proud of all the pills i popped and how hard i worked to be the picture of
someone else's perfection. but i was lucky enough to break away from it. to get the chance to start over and
truly live healthy. i would be lying if i said making the right food choices was easy - i struggle a lot less than i used to, and my dear husband has been an amazing cheerleader in helping me realize that food is not necessarily
my enemy. it's meant to be
enjoyed. but you have to practice control, which isn't always an easy thing to do.
now i'm a mom. i've been through two pregnancies that have changed my body forever. my weight has fluctuated to numbers that a younger version of me would have sobbed over. but as i sit here typing this, with the newest addition to our family snoring softly on my chest, i can't imagine never having had those experiences. i've learned to see my body as beautiful, regardless of that number on the scale or what size clothing i fit into now.
if nothing else, that's what i want to pass on to {YOU}, my readers. that you're
beautiful. it's not a number, it's how you feel. it's being comfortable in your own skin. it's knowing that you're making food choices to better your life so that you can live it to the fullest extent possible, expand your family, play with your children... being active so you can sleep better at night, improve your health, live longer, play harder.
i can't wait to get to know every one of you: your ambitions, your dreams, your challenges... think of me as your personal cheerleader! lookin' forward to a happy, healthy,
fabulous 2014!